Yes, we were flying high, soaring among the clouds, free and happy! Then a health crisis began - one minute everything was beautiful and fine - the next minute, frightening, security of our loved one threatened, life changed in an instant. Our precious, perfect 16 month old baby, Sadie Caroline, was sick. Nothing else mattered - everything that was so important yesterday vanished. All of our attention, prayers, concerns, love were focused on our baby girl.
After a year I still have people tell me they don't see how I do it - how I can work and smile and live life with such pain in my heart. This is what I have concluded.
I can say for me this has been the saddest most heartbreaking thing I can imagine. But the thing that got me through is my faith that God is watching over us and that tomorrow will come. Life will not always be as we want it, but fighting it just never gains anything. Accepting the changes and finding our way again in the midst of change is the only way to survive. I have learned to pray for God's will to be done and for God to give me strength. I have learned that listening to others and reaching out to others is the best way to heal myself. This is how I can put one foot in front of the other - just get out there, stay busy, encourage others, have faith and pray for strength each and every day. My smiles are real - I love life even through the pain and sadness this has brought - I look forward to every day and it's opportunities and the people who will come my way that hopefully I can influence in a positive way.
Life is a mystery to us, but God has a plan. Sadie is safe and happy in heaven now, and we all have to remember her sweetness and live our lives to the fullest without her physical presence, but hold her memory close in our hearts. Please, if you love someone, let them know today - tell them, give them a hug and a smile.
Click this link to see what many are helping me do in Sadie's memory - to keep her memory alive and share her sunshine smiles with others in need. www.facebook.com/sadiesunshinechapter